Things are so much different now. But I’m ok with the new chapters in my life. I feel free and new. The past is definitely no where bear to be remembered.

Forgot I had a tumblr. Well not really, I just wanted to forget all the memories that were on here. But ive decided to start it back up again..

Im in awe at the beauty of life and the length its gone to bring to the place that I am.

Growth in every aspect of my life and in others has expounded greatly. 

This past year gone. 

The new approaches. 

So I sit and welcome it with open arms and expetancy for great things to take place. 

Life goes on and grows on.

What are we to make of it. 

And who are we to be. 

You decide this next year as it takes its course. 

hopefisch:

You know how I know God is real?

Because I should be a girl who’s been used. I should be a girl who’s heart is eaten alive with bitterness and unforgiveness. I should be a girl who sees her body as nothing more than an amusement park for public use. I should be a girl who has lost faith in anyone…

so good.

If I look through this year I can say I lived in a different country. Can speak three languages. Homeless. Became a kite flying pro. Picked up painting. Fell in love. Went to amazing shows. Lost friends. Discovered myself. Found my passion. Grew up but not old. Redefined lines. 

Which leads me to December. Its always been a giddy month where everyday my heart skips a beat and there’s never a smile not on my face. Simply because amazing things happen in this month. But i’m not expectant this year, this December. Im more so just amazed at everything Ive been through. 

To hell and back starting in 2010 and now im winding up 2011 with this last month to go. I knew these years would be crazy, and obviously that was an understatement. But I now see what life is after all Ive pondered about. 

Life is; simply what you make it. Greater or less. People have always set a status quo for life. And yet its just ordinary people who set it. No one smarter or dumber than us. So we as “people” get to decide how great and grand we live it or how crappy and sad we think it should be. 

Nonsense thoughts that bring a revelation to me somehow.

Need less to say im grateful after everything Ive learned so far. Because I found out in the end what to be true and what was not. You live and you learn and life goes on. because in the end its the longest thing we do on earth, but the shortest thing we do compared to eternity. And I cant wait for eternity. 

just thought about this. When we are waiting on something for a long time and are expecting an answer. We dont lose anything while waiting. We can only gain. 

Like a pregnant woman waiting to give birth. She waits for the perfect timing to recieve the gift of life. She doesnt lose anything while waiting. And neither do we. 

We gain excitement. We gain expectancy. And we gain strength. Strength to hold on a little longer until we receive what we are waiting for. 

God is good. He doesnt allow us to wait any longer than we should have to. He’s good on timing and yet doesnt work on our schedule of timing. 

This concept of waiting can be seen through any aspect of life :)

illestexpectations:

10:50PM Nov 6th: “I fuckked up my own suicide” yeah tell me about it…

6:44AM Nov 7th: Staying home today. Can I reach 1000 tweets??? I’m thinking yes!

9:45AM Nov 7th: just woke up

9:45AM Nov 7th: Don’t feel too well

9:45AM Nov 7th: There is somebody in my dreams

9:46AM…

This made me cry, not because I met her, not because i know her relatives, but because it took her death for things to be seen. Thankfully God is the God of justice and he is the one in control. You dont have to reblog but atleast read this. 

(Source: twitter.com)